Wednesday, April 2, 2008, 4:56 PM
I felt uneasy being around at home.
i know there's something not right but i hate to feel this kind of feelings.
i felt insecure.
i felt very uneasy.
And i was laughing like hell enjoying myself yesterday at vivo,
cause i just wanna smile & be happy.
But the minit i get home , i felt different.
I tend to have moodswings .
I scream at my friends.
I scream at my boyfriend.
Baby, i know u feel hurt. Im so sorry.
I just felt there's something not right.
so what if i smoke?
so what if i drink & dance?
as long as i know how to take care of myself,
i wont memalukan my family name.
ohmen. i really hate this.
im really sorry baby.
i still love you boy.
youre still my precious one.
believe me.
*sigh*
Anyway, mr khairul came awhile just now.
mcm pay a visit gituh. siak kau.
it was very sad that his gg again to taiwan this saturday.
i really miss him. i really miss those times. i felt like telling him, "khai i miss u".. but i know he will say, " ade2 je lah kau.." His going again this sat.
me : u, biler g taiwan.biler book in and book out?
him : besok pagi book in. friday book out. sat taiwan dahh.nak shopping!! (:
me : HAA!! SATURDAY?! ABEH SUKE NYE KAUUU! hais.
him : abeh?
me : khai, fri book out jumpe sekejap k. pls.
him : ye makcik.
and otw back yesterday at nel.
i listen to this boyshome song, jumali ke whatever crap uh. Than suddenly i wanna cry.
ullie : lynn , knape kau?
me : tak. kau dgr lagu ni. Aku teringat es main guitar sak. zaman dulu2 biler semue jiwe. semue syg one another. tapi skg.. aku betol2 rindu dorg. Pade aku,kawan ehh.. aku tk kesah ar kalau org tkde pakaian. Tak semestinye org berpakaian kaye. Aku susah nak explain. tapi aku betol2 rindu semue org.:(
and ullie listen to that song.
ullie : lynn. repeat lagek.
well. i really miss those old us. Old times.
whenever i think of it, i wanna cry. People change just so fast. why eh?
isit life khairul? I hope u wont change.
yesh i have ton's of friend.
but there's only certain babyboy, babygirls i really cherish.
I treasure and love the old.
I always believe people can change to e better.
but there's only certain babyboy, babygirls i really cherish.
I treasure and love the old.
I always believe people can change to e better.
