Thursday, May 22, 2008, 2:30 PM
Anyway yesterday ;
Just few of us celebrate baby birthday.
And eventually , mum and dad were bz entertaining guest.
so yeah ,
Just few of us celebrate baby birthday.
And eventually , mum and dad were bz entertaining guest.
so yeah ,
this is what i oder from hanna cupcake.
(:
And i hope u like the present that i gave u in the box.
Somehow yesterday really kills my ass off.
and yet,this boy here..
travel back to hougang from jurong west when i was sleeping.
well ; i understand that somehow they need u more than i.
they make u more happy than i do.
and their moves make me feel as if im .........
i know im a stranger.
i knew non from your side.
fucktart.
im totally fuck up.
seriously.
anyway to my dearest farrah;
i know how hard you try to get over it.
Somehow that day when u met me under my void-deck talking about how confused u are,
how much u love him bt it a heartache when u see unexpected things in his phone.
i know how it feels.
i know how it hurts.
somehow, sometimes they cant see which is the good and which is the bad.
They always think of having freedom and enjoyable moment of fling around.
What happen to you.
happen to me before.
im used to be him.
and u used to be my ex boyfriend. get that.
In time to comes, i started to feel guilty.
Therefor when i try hard to change for the best in my relationship,
he told me he could give me a chance.
Bt end up, he played me around and he told me it was karma.
the way he played me, its 10times hurt than what i ever done .
i always tell myself that he'll regret.
i always tell myself that who ever he with right now,
im still his best ex girlfriend.
im still the best.
im the only soul who knows the best about him.
i waited . and hearing romours about him having an affair with another person..
i was so harsh to be in a relationship with the one that i dont love.
i thought he will see. i thought he will feel tha pain .
but end up, he says goodluck to me.
life moves on for me.
I be with someone who loves me.
but end up, i gave up.
i even told that someone that i still loves him.
and this someone was the only soul who could understand me.
i even cry my lungs out when im with him.
Tell him how much i miss him.
and he gave me good advise.
But end up, i leave him cause i know even tho he have been guiding me to forget him he felt hurt.
it took me 4mth to forget him.
Totally get his ass off from my mind.
Until today; ive been with the person that ive seen love for over 5mth plus.
Likewise, i do tell him that somehow i miss him.
but in times to come,
ive painted my past black.
i dont see him in my dreams anymore.
i stand tall and strong telling myself,
why do i still hook on him.
where he dont even turn back at me at all after break up..
even tho im the best,
his the best
out of all?
is hard to move on.
and it takes plenty of time to get over it.
to accept the fact that the one u love & treasure gone forever.
its rather to be with someone who love u .
rather than someone u love .
everything takes time to work things out 2gather as one.
reading your entry,
i feel the heartache.
i cant see u suffer.
and i want u to move on babe.
u know how hurt it feels when i saw u the other day,
with a stress face?
i love you babe.
everything needs plenty of time.
