Friday, May 30, 2008, 11:40 PM
i cant be bothered about it when people scold me . I know u guys might care, but at this point of time i dont wana answer any question from anyone like, what happen lynn? whats the actuall story? whats the cause if it? and that kind of question . Its not that im pushing aside u people when u people wana be there for me, but at this point of time i need a break to actually let myself free and laugh like nobody business bt yet i cant. I just need some space . Im sorry khairul. I actually pushed u guys away ;It just bcos im stuck down there. Thats all. and now my friends are very disapointed with me,i went out to meet aminah to some her place.i just think dat i need some space in a room to actually get myself drunk and do whatever i want. Aminah tried her best to make me smile, and suddenly the door bell rang and i saw him enter that room. I didnt even look at him. All i asked him was,
" u lapa?u lapa i g beli mkn?" and he just sat there and said, whats wrong now? what u want?
i just keep my mouth shut and dont wanna think of it. aminah left us, and he sat beside me when i was smoking. I asked him, i wanna hear from his own mouth why his doing this to me. why is he treating me like this.
all i can believe is that , its true his loves towards me fade.
and ive yet known whether its true if his ctcting otha gerls and playing behind my back.
i dont see the love in his eyes. But i feel it when he hug me and kiss me and wiping off my tears telling me, " pls dont cry."
im just in confusion situation.
ive not really give up.
i still need to really understand why he's doing this.
i miss him .
the old moment that we had 2gather.
and honestly i dont blame karma.
its just that i believe in it.
the old moment that we had 2gather.
and honestly i dont blame karma.
its just that i believe in it.
