sweet nothings.

Thursday, July 17, 2008, 1:03 PM

Finally my computer are no longer behaving like pussies cause i cant already log in to blogger ,friendster and everything already (: but im still using the stupid ebuddy cause im not sure if msn are allow to be downloaded. Anyway, im back to work and ive been trying my best to put the lazyness aside, u know why?cause ive been waking up late 2 or 3pm and working right now make me woke at at 6 since its a office hr accept for some day where i started work late like today , 7pm (: and the sad thing is that i'll be working for both saturday sunday and i can enjoy life only after late noon! But to dearest babygirls, i'll make it at late noon for this saturday iye (: & i hope to see everyone of you who claim earlier on that u could make it. so yeah` working have been great and the nerves of 1st day of work will always be there and its like super ccb ahhh. And i swear my brain are totally crack up when learning on all those computer stuff , and im so gona start my OWN today w/o having any buddy~ and i hope everything will go well. I wanna be pro like all my other colleague arrr like they can type like so super fast w/o looking at the keyboard ahhhh. and everything was already on their head. goood memory siah. Ape ke tak, they have been working like more than 7 years ok. So im the junior there now. And working 2gather with kakak was really a laughing gas ahhhh. (: And i hope, things will go well and i could work for long as for what ive targeted . (:

So after ive started working , ive been missing my irritating boy very much ah. Ive been sleeping early and both of us have been veru busy and too tired for long conversation on the phone. But i get to meet him after work like yesterday, but i doze off early cause i was too tired. And u know , whenever i miss him like fucked ahhh and when he woke me up early in the morning to kiss me before he went to work, i'll like cry u noe. Like just now. pussy. So does that mean, im loving u like old time baby?

still holding on and on.

Friendship.

Anyway, i cant deny that ive been missing my old bestfriend imah which i think we both have been going to our seperate way for good. Its unfair for me cause ive always been hooking on where else she have been happily moving on, didnt even think of me or even look back at me to find me & suprisingly she can just go mia for long. And the worse thing is that , people have been telling me about the word backstabbing. I was super shock ahh but like earlier on some mofo actually tell her what ive been saying , i swear i wasen mad at all cause i just want her to know what is her mistake. But after apologising, i wonder if she realize her mistake. I wont bring myself to face right to her face to spill out everything cause i think that dosen work for sensitive and ego people. So yea, seriously for all those sweet and sour we've been through ; i really really really miss u imah. Ive always been waiting for u to turn back and spend our time 2gather like the pass 8 years but , i cant blame it when people change. The sad thing ever was ; u didnt appreciate me at all dear. But no matter what, i'll always welcome u back if u were to call me ur own bestfriend and if u really know whats the meaning of it. U can have many friends ahhh but bestfriend is a different thing u noe. And i hope, u're happy now with what u are doing now.

and i swear my heart is aching when im typing this.

Sometimes thinking back where we always do things 2gather, get the same things 2gather really make me wanne cry u noe.

i miss u dear friend.

But never to forget, the one and only im left with now is my dear muhd khairul izul shah. He have always been there for me whenever i need him. Even if i were to call him crying, he will always listen to me even tho his busy. And this person here have always been like a brother to me, and much people always mistaken us as boyfriends and girlfriends outside but we're not and will never happen (: right khairul? And thinking back of how we know each other, how close we are now really make me wanna pee in my pants ahhh. But this fella is the best , very best and the one and only mr khairul izul shah. (: and i hope, our friendship will go far ehhh fuck.(:

muhd khairul izul shah.

And of cause i'll never forget my another two single superhero boy that i love and treasure so much too. Dearest ullie, ; We used to play monopoly laaa masak2 lahh during our primary sch days. We got to know each other ever since we're primary one and he just live next door. And both of us shift house at the same time , which mean we have been staying here for 11 years eh? And this boy here was super cute ahh and super short when he's primary three . And when our age are above 13 years old, we no longer talk or play monopoly 2gather. Reaching the age of 15 even, we didnt even talk cause i cant deny that this boy have grown to be a tall and good looking guy. OK AHHH.ahahahah, and at each of every year when our age are add to 1 year older ehh, we both are super shy to talk to each other. To even face each other. Until when our age are 16 eh, u noe how we can be close ? very very very close?

When i was smoking with my babygirls , i came across the few guys ahh and the 1st guy that i knew was shafiq, imah boyfriend. and that time , they just get to know each other tru me. And suprisingly i saw my dear neighbour with them, smoking sembunyi2 u noe. And he was super shy to come to me when the rest are already talking with me. That explain to my dear homies; the 20 of them. But at the end of the day, this boy came up to me and say.

" ehh lynn. sebatang ahhh. bilang mami ehhh! jgn blang ibu tau!(his mum)"

and i was really laughing my ass out ahh. i mean like u noe he was acting so cute ahh and remembering back those old days. Monopoly to now almost do everything 2gather till we bcome so close as brother and sister and he'll always come to save me whenever people create trouble with me. Maybe they look or sound mat mat ah but i swear these guy got good heart. And whenever he merajok with me or never meet me or knock on my door, i'll feel very sad and i'll miss him. But his ego wont be long, cause he'll msg me telling me that he actually miss me even tho we're neighbour. (:

like now, " lynn! where r u, i bring cd for u"

me: at home, but im working at 7 till mid.

ullie : alaah keje! semue org da keje!!!! argh!!!! :(

dearest superhero; Yuslie (:

Lastly never never never to forget another soul that i treasure so much, that have been there for me when i need him for few days, the person who followed me to meet my ex bf when i feel like really smack his ass hard that time(my ex). the person that saw me cry and hug me telling me not to cry . The person who will ensure things will be ok for me after knwing that im stress or not. And when things are back to normal for me, he'll always call me as say," ehh kau da ok kan, jommm ah minom". u noe like that shit ass. The person who look like mat mat but his very childish. Like to be pamper and the person who will asked me to cook for him when his at my home or company him eating. The person whom i am so worried for when his head are being knocked with a wood and the person that i saw his hand were being cut off by a knife or donnoe what. The person who enjoy happiness and sadness time with me. The person who call me to come down to accompany him eating after work , still remember those days when he become very emo over a gerl of nearly 1 week. He cried in front of me, telling me things from A- Z. He'll none other than my dearest suharry putra . Even tho we're all busy and some things do happen between us. YOU, i'll never forget. And u're just part of the small circle i had. The guy who really got a nice voice and he eventually melts a girl heart when he started to sing.

suharry putra ; i miss this ass so much

This are the people that ive 1st tresure during my teens life. The great person that ive meet , how close we can be, we wont get sick even tho if we were to meet each other almost everyday . Things might be falling apart ; but we're still holding on as bestfriends and goodfriends. I'll never forget those babygirls and boyfriends that i had in my life. My old primary sch bestfriend; u noe who u are . and just every single one that are closes to me, close to my heart ; i hope our friendship will go as far as we could. Until we became mummy or daddy one day. Insyallah~ :) And thats the reason why , i dont like a group of friends noeing each other just to join force with another group for fame. (:

mentang2 blog are back, i type this long ehhhh. hahahah. nolah, ive been wanting to type this shit long ago.

have a good day.