Sunday, September 28, 2008, 4:15 AM
I hate it when anger control my body. And when im in that situation where anger control my body, i tend to really want that thing in my hand. As in, if im angry with you, i want you to deal with me. And when u leave me just like that and leave me shivvering b4 u settle with me(i shivver when im angry, i cry when im shivvering), i'll do anything that gona hurt u or make u very pissed with me. But that wasen what i want, bcos i was in that kind of mood and i just let things out , what is on my mind. It will just go berzerrrrrr and i'll just do anything . But in my heart,im very soft in the inside.
And you know , i used to be a very hot temper person.And , i admit that ive thrash that shit in me, but if i dosen get what i want, i'll be very pissed. is this call ego or selfish?..Which is still there in me.
Sometimes, im selfish in a way where i just want that thing just for me. only me not any one else.
and when the next day arrive,
or soon after ive calm down, i'll regret like shit ass. u know, i just feel that im in a wrong very very wrong. Bcos i cant control my temper and i'll just shoot out anythg that is in my head . I'll just smack that person or kick his ass or anythg when im very very angry and when ive already calm down,; i tell you, its hard fo me 2 forgive myself. But i know ive hurt that person even tho im angry with that person or even if im not in a wrong. Ecp my love one.
Different people, different character.
But when u ask for forgiveness or ask me out the day even tho i hate u like fuck that day or whatever shit, i'll always forgive that person but not to forget what had happen.
u get what i mean?
it just that, now i feel guilty with him.
annnnnnd if u people were to asked me to CHANGE,
yes i know its fo the better.
but its easier to be said than done.
bapak borek,anak rintik
err, is that the correct malay sentence?
&& i just dont know what to do now.
fuck!
And you know , i used to be a very hot temper person.And , i admit that ive thrash that shit in me, but if i dosen get what i want, i'll be very pissed. is this call ego or selfish?..Which is still there in me.
Sometimes, im selfish in a way where i just want that thing just for me. only me not any one else.
and when the next day arrive,
or soon after ive calm down, i'll regret like shit ass. u know, i just feel that im in a wrong very very wrong. Bcos i cant control my temper and i'll just shoot out anythg that is in my head . I'll just smack that person or kick his ass or anythg when im very very angry and when ive already calm down,; i tell you, its hard fo me 2 forgive myself. But i know ive hurt that person even tho im angry with that person or even if im not in a wrong. Ecp my love one.
Different people, different character.
But when u ask for forgiveness or ask me out the day even tho i hate u like fuck that day or whatever shit, i'll always forgive that person but not to forget what had happen.
u get what i mean?
it just that, now i feel guilty with him.
annnnnnd if u people were to asked me to CHANGE,
yes i know its fo the better.
but its easier to be said than done.
bapak borek,anak rintik
err, is that the correct malay sentence?
&& i just dont know what to do now.
fuck!
b, i love you .
i just really love you. thats all.
:(
