Friday, November 14, 2008, 8:10 PM
cry too much.
think too much.
you hurt me too much,
and end up im sick right now.
everyone hates fever, so do i because u tend to get very weak.
and other than that, im getting sick of you.
i come to realize , i dont think i need to love you as much as how much ive been loving you.
because end up, im the one who get hurt and i just find that its very unfair to me.
because i know you wont understand me,
and just think that im a dramaqueen.
but as far as i know, im just stating the fact.
he can just play outside as much as he want,gets home and do whatever he wants and ignore his gf.
and he dont even think that somehow, his gf needs him at some period of time but he choose and dont have a brain to think that he should me there for a least a moment.
sometimes, things make me feel complicated.
because i always asked myself, is this what i want?
is he the one i want to be with?
is he the one that ive been dreaming for , for my future?
maybe im just daydreaming too much.
but im not like you babies.
you people are strong and i know im not as strong as you babies.
even if i fall, im just o weak to stand up because i'll tend to feel that im a loser at this point.
and everything started to wobble in my mind,
getting to stress and too much depression like a mad lady.
im trying hard to follow what my heart say.
and trying to find something else that are much important that i should think about than him.
because, i just think that its very veyr unfair for me to only feel the pain.
if he makes me happy.
if im happy.
would i feel this way than?
would i feel so broken hearted and have the thoughts to let things go than?
times will decide.
