Im always a burung hantu at night you know cause ive difficulty in sleeping early. And the compliment that kak elly gave me just now was, lynn ure fat. and i totally agree with her cause my face in round like an apple now. Blame on staying too much at home again & again. Im just lazy for stupid exercise la kan .:)
Anyway, sometimes things that happen to me make me learn more about life. Make me learn more about people, and understanding people. Ive always have the difficulty to let the person i love go. & you know i'll always cry like a baby at night or at times when i think of them, i'll tend to miss them so much and will try to make things better and like forcing them to stay and that is so wrong. But now, ive learn to let the person whom i love go. I'll let them go as far as they want since they decide this. But no matter how much hatred he or she have towerds me, once a friendship, will always be save in my heart. When people asked me, how's tom. I'll answer, "whose tom?".
i may look upon u as a stranger now. i may show that i hate you in any way. but deep inside, only god knows how it feels.I'll always welcome you back and gave you a chance to be back like last time if one day you come back to me.
i admit, i am softhearted. Im willing to forgive and forget. But when comes to things that are really getting on my nerve, im willing to forgive but never to forget.
I just feel that now , im just living in my own wide world. Im living with my boyfriend. Because there's no more old routine with friends. What do you expect, people's growing up. people change.
And for sure, im always here if you know where to find me.
See that picture above , the word LOVE?
i can feel if that peson is heartbroken. When i came across blog's or people life about love, and when i see that they have been suffering so much; i feel very pity for them. Somehow i just hope that i can smack the other party who make them suffer or throw rotten eggs at them. I understand that everything that happen is a part and parcel of life. But i still dont get it sometimes why a guy or a girls attitude seems to be worse than a witch or a beast. Eg; knowing that his attached and when u he asked you to be his love, you can still respond something like, " its not that i dont love you. i do wanna be with you and do have the feeling of love towerds you. but than you settle ure stuff with ure gf 1st". and wtf is tat? Knwoing that he's attached you can still kiss him and hug him and whatever it is as if he dosen have a gf? Knowing that his attached, u can ride on his bike and hug him tight and give him a goodbye kiss on his cheeks. and wtf is that?
Knowing that she's attached, u can try ure bloody luck to actually melts her heart and make her wanna love you, make her fall in love with you. Knowing that she's attached, u can kiss her, hug her and tried ure best to make her feel over the moon with the horny kind of feeling.
dont you girl, can feel how the other girl gona feels?
dont you guys,can feel how the other party gona feels like?
what if someone do this to you. I mean if u were a girl, and ure guy left you for the sake of another girl?
im saying this because i can see that this shit is happening around too many people. Some people just dont appreciate what people have done for them, dont appreciate what have been given too them. Some people just dont have brains to think. Maybe bcos they are still a kid, or think that are one big hotstuff that can play around with people heart and feelings. And they took our feeling as a toy than can be played around. what fuck is that.
Im not saying as if im perfect or i have a perfect r's or whatsoever. im saying this bcos this shit is happening to my own friend. And i can feel how his gf and bf gona feels later on you know.
I just wish that this kind will grow up and have a matured thinking. And if you think you find a girl or a guy just for the sake of something and having fun , than find someone that got the same character as you. FInd those bitches or those jerks outside who have the same mind as you. Dont hurt the person who have a nice heart . Do you know how hurt it feels to get hurt by the one that you deeply in love with?
You think you what, bcos of you people lose their love one. Bcos of you, the other party suffer. Both in r's and friendship. have some heart and thought for other people.
grrr.
time checked: 4:16am and im typing this long and change my skin again & again ey. I just feel that i wanna blog about this, bcos im feeling the hurt on how people lost the one that they really love.
i just hope that, to you human ; you'll come to your sense that he's attached. i shuden say that to him. You'll come to your sense that ure attached, u cant do this to ure gf and be thankful for what you have. You'll come to ure sense that, i cant be selfish to only think for myself. She and he is losing him and she, i shud help them get back to their own track.
own-ing a enemy is no good i tell you.
Everyone have their own problems in life, but is the matter of how you gone solve it tho u have to suffer or sacrifice.
i have a heart and thought for other people. On another hand,
im saying, what the fuck is happening now.
and to all those babies who are so much suffering from love, you need to stay strong. And i know when friends advise you and convince you it only helps to sooth the pain only at that period of time but when the time you are alone, everything is running around in your mind and the only best thing that in ure mind are, its better off commiting a suicide or hurt ureself up when your crying. You need to get yourself busy and lively, and i know with things hooking in ure mind plus the heartache-ing its hard for you to look at the brightside of life. But seriously, you need to get out from the trap, and get ure butts off ure room and enjoy the scenary outside or have a lil talk with ure friends. and i know it gona be better comparing from how the feeling was at the 1st start.
i tell you, 6 days down the road and have been crying and doing stupid things just to stop everything that are played in my mind was really extremely sucks. Friends advise only stop me from just a second. But when im stuck in the room, and my friends have been calling me to get out from that room, i didnt believe that things are much more better than how it 1st felt. And the next thing is when i saw him, i burst everything out infront of him, and so what if i look ugly when i cried, im thankful that he accepted and actually whatever i said really hits his brain and now, we're continue-ing back our love journey.ANd on that period of time, if he ask me to leave for good ive actually prepare for the worst.
You have to be prepare for the worst. Love is blind. Love can always make humans to insanity. & ive came across people who have been going through depression and taking pills to stop everything from happening. But i dont look down on this kind people. And ive always tried my best to make him feel better cause i know, how he felt, why he turn out to be like this and he can get better.
and the worse thing that ever happen in my life , is when karma strike last year when im with my 4years ex boyfriend. Karma sound sucha idiot but i believe its true . And ive been suffering nearly four month, but all say thanks to my parents and my boyfriend who make me get up and accepting the fact that his gone and we're not meant for each other.
Im a woman with feelings and i know you woman can do it. And i know woman have a jelly heart but that dosen mean knowing the fact that we are weak, we cuden get up and show them what we've got.
