Tuesday, February 10, 2009, 2:25 AM
happy 1year 2mth dearest boyfriend.
im dissapointed,
but why?
what shud i do to make things betta?
i had never want to make my love fade, nor to make things drift apart.
ive never put high expectation on him, but i just wants you to sooth my heart, shower me with full of love,
make me feel that i actually someone in ure life.
thats all..
and you know that i love u so much,
i shower u with full of love and love u whole heartedly.
but why?
you seek for freedom.
and you know i cant be apart from you,
and i dont mind u calling me irritating gf.
bcos i know, i did my part to at least to prove you something.
i end up, giving up and tried my best to gave you what u want.
it was hard fo me to give you green light,
it feels as if im letting you go.
and yet i did,.
but i feels so insecure.
i feel so uncomfortable with that way.
bcos im afraid that history will happen once again in my life,
i cant be bother to face every shit again.
and by feeling that way
than, i feel that our love is fading,
we're drifting apart.
and i cried, whenever i feel that way.
and i cried yet again to try my best not to feel this way.
and i asked myself this,
what should i do now?
and i feel as if im already suck in r's.
i just dont know what to do.
i just dont want us to regret when things are already at the end of the sharp point.
bcos there's no point crying over spilt milk.
i am pampered.
when i love someone, i love him and shower him with full of love and pampered.
bcos i dont want to lost a person that ive start loving, and loving so much go away from my life again.
i dont want to feel the pain of heartbroken, but yet again i feel the pain of dissapointment.
i just love you so so much.
but ure different now.
u once promise me that after 'things''are over, we will be back to square one like spending our time and all.
but things are gg to the opp way,
and ure not being who u are.
we are not the used to be us.
why?
and now , im emotionally crying typing this.
im just so sad,
that sometimes i feel that ure even putting me aside.
yes im crying,
but so what/
things are running through my mind now, this and that.
im falling, yet again.
prove me something,
that i actually mean something to urlife.
make me feel that,
''oh my bf love me so much. and i trusted him so i dont need to feel so like uncomfartable that he might be playing behinde my back'.
again,
happy 1yr 2mth love.
i just dont want history to happen again.
let it be the first and the last thing that happen in my life.
not again.
bcos ive start learning not to repeat stupid mistake in my life again.
i love you baby.
you know that i love you so much.
im dissapointed,
but why?
what shud i do to make things betta?
i had never want to make my love fade, nor to make things drift apart.
ive never put high expectation on him, but i just wants you to sooth my heart, shower me with full of love,
make me feel that i actually someone in ure life.
thats all..
and you know that i love u so much,
i shower u with full of love and love u whole heartedly.
but why?
you seek for freedom.
and you know i cant be apart from you,
and i dont mind u calling me irritating gf.
bcos i know, i did my part to at least to prove you something.
i end up, giving up and tried my best to gave you what u want.
it was hard fo me to give you green light,
it feels as if im letting you go.
and yet i did,.
but i feels so insecure.
i feel so uncomfortable with that way.
bcos im afraid that history will happen once again in my life,
i cant be bother to face every shit again.
and by feeling that way
than, i feel that our love is fading,
we're drifting apart.
and i cried, whenever i feel that way.
and i cried yet again to try my best not to feel this way.
and i asked myself this,
what should i do now?
and i feel as if im already suck in r's.
i just dont know what to do.
i just dont want us to regret when things are already at the end of the sharp point.
bcos there's no point crying over spilt milk.
i am pampered.
when i love someone, i love him and shower him with full of love and pampered.
bcos i dont want to lost a person that ive start loving, and loving so much go away from my life again.
i dont want to feel the pain of heartbroken, but yet again i feel the pain of dissapointment.
i just love you so so much.
but ure different now.
u once promise me that after 'things''are over, we will be back to square one like spending our time and all.
but things are gg to the opp way,
and ure not being who u are.
we are not the used to be us.
why?
and now , im emotionally crying typing this.
im just so sad,
that sometimes i feel that ure even putting me aside.
yes im crying,
but so what/
things are running through my mind now, this and that.
im falling, yet again.
prove me something,
that i actually mean something to urlife.
make me feel that,
''oh my bf love me so much. and i trusted him so i dont need to feel so like uncomfartable that he might be playing behinde my back'.
again,
happy 1yr 2mth love.
i just dont want history to happen again.
let it be the first and the last thing that happen in my life.
not again.
bcos ive start learning not to repeat stupid mistake in my life again.
i love you baby.
you know that i love you so much.
Labels: dissapointment, emotional, happy 14 monthsary
