Monday, February 16, 2009, 5:42 PM
After knowing each otha fo few years already, we decided to meet up and we're togather on 101207. That i when i told myself, ive never give up my love fo someone, that is when i told myself that its time fo me to change and lets not make history to repeat but take up all my history as a lesson to learn.
What does a relationship means without all those ups and down? And of cause we've been through so many hardship, and being thru so many shits when we're moving on as days passes by. You know everything seems to be so sweet, so touch during the first moment of just being together .
This relationship are falling alot of time, but im as a gf will never stop this relationship just like that. I wont stop to tried my best to make this relationship hold on and stays as long as im still breathing, as long as the love that i had fo him are still there.And only if you know, ive never love someone dearly like i love him you know. I tried my best to give him what ive got, tried my best to shower him with lots of love, care and concern. But ive never tried my best to understand what he wants.
why?
bcos his different. He's not like ur bf, or ure gf boyfriends who shower their gf with love. Bcos he kept it in his heart. ANd that make me feel sooooo insecure. In a relationship, i believe that we need trust. And bf have never make me feel im something in his life, bf have never make me feel that he love me so much and dearly. As time pass by, things started to change. I feel so insecure, i feel so complicated, i just dont know what to do, and all i do is keepon crying. bcos i just feel restless, and he wont do anything to make me feel better.
i keepon crying bcos i realise that our love is fading.
i dont want this to happen.
havent i tried my very best after all?
i still move and, and as a gf ive never give up even tho whatever he say hits me hard in my heart. Somehow i feel like , i wanna give up but i dont, and our relationship seems to be rocky and shaky after since than,lately.
all i ever want is, someone to shower me with love. all i ever want is someone who willing to love me whole heartedly, someone who can prove to me that im something is his life. And ive never asked someone to be so romantic , giving flowers or suprises to me.
And by giving me what i ever want, it makes me feel so secure.
And i can do whatever things with a peaceful mind, telling myself that,
"i dont need to worry even if his doing his job or his busy bcos i know im the only girl that he loveee so much. and i trusted him and he wont do anything that gona fail me down."
And i bet, of cause we can think maturedly and positively when we have trust on each otha and we feel secure with the love that are given by our love ones.
Things are changing now. i dont know what he are up too. and can i say things are in a complicated situation fo me n him? but baby if ure reading this, i hope u'l come to ure sense and realise what u are lack off and what u shud do. i will alwys hope that u'll come back to me and tell me that things gona be fineeeee.and u know when u call me baby, when u call me love, when u give me goodnight kisses, that really sooth my heart?
:(
i cried everynight, every day not bcos i want attention.
i cried everynight everyday bcos im just really sad and heartbroken.
presure.
:(
i cried everynight, every day not bcos i want attention.
i cried everynight everyday bcos im just really sad and heartbroken.
presure.
