Friday, February 27, 2009, 1:15 AM
When im home, i feel like heaven. You know like leaving house for few days can make me fall sick and i miss my..
bed (:
and everyone actually.heheheheheeheh
Im okay now. But not totally okay? gahhh,idk but now i feel that my tears are already dry and i cant cry anymore unless when at times i suddenly think of him. Deep down in his heart i know he dont want to leave me, but you know being ego dosen solve anything but making things to be more worse. i always tell myself, its alright lynn. i still loves him. and even tho whatever happen that make me suffer now, i never hate him.and never. Of cause im do still wants to be with him BUT hearing all advise and everything sometimes i think, "nahhhh forget him. i should move on."or maybe ,"change to be a more better person before we're back"... but do you think we gona be back togather again? I never put hope, cause i know this wont happen.
it seems like this is the 2nd shit that happen to me eh.
remember when i was with faizul? after he leave me just like dat for four years? cialakkkkk lor but than for that case, i deserve it bcos i need to learn from my mistake. even tho is a fucking 4 years stories. OMG, i was still a *growingupgirl* at that moment la kan.
but now? noo i dont think i deserve this, and im not saying that i am perfect or whatsoever but seriously i dont deserve this. And this is why, my heart really breaks and ache sooo much. fuck.it hurts me soooooooooooo much you know. *ouch*really. and how does it feels to be heartbroken? and its never easy to MOVE ON, a'ha.
gahhhhhh! forget it.
anw, ive been trying to keep myself busy this few days to forget about this. But than it seems like im losing SOMEONE again ahhh. nevermind laa, lifes still moves on. if you wanna leave than leave, if you wana stay than stay. seriously im sick of this laahhh. i dont wanna bother so much.
So how does it feel being single?
nurul : you can go dating with lotsaaaaaa guy laa kan.
idiot! hahahaha. but does this help to forget about every shit that im gg through?ohhh nono?oh yesyes?
but even tho he might proudly declare that his single, im not proud to say i am single. bullshit. bcos, i feel as if his still around , everywhere. i feel as it is like a fucking timeout. But i know its totally fucking over.But seriously, i fucking love him so much you know. And i know ive been so emo ever since than. but what do you expect, we're like can never be apart you know, we're like glueeeeeeeeeeee and just in a glance,
fuck off. we're over.
like that?
argh!
i'll give him hard and show him what ive got.
party tomorrow?
im just like lost mood after being so super excited.
idk, idk , idk.
and you know what i did today?
i cut my hair :(
nurul : tkmooooo laaaa lawa kan rambot panjang.
ullie : jgn laa. rambot pendek tk lawa la.
but i just trim it laa and keep the length but i feel like my hair is short.
maybe there's no difference when you see it lor, but than i feel its short now.
im just to stress and bored till i decide to cut my hair just now.
ive long to try for extention, but i really dont know.
and im gona dye JET BLACK?soon?
oh yes. roy say , "youuu look minah with the hair.
and what fuck does it concern about i look like minah with my hair?
roy say,"the colour"
dummy.
gahhhhh!
and now,
see im thinking of him again.
fadhli, why are you doing this to me?
is love a bullshit?
oh dear, wake up lynn.
party tomorrow?
im just like lost mood after being so super excited.
idk, idk , idk.
and you know what i did today?
i cut my hair :(
nurul : tkmooooo laaaa lawa kan rambot panjang.
ullie : jgn laa. rambot pendek tk lawa la.
but i just trim it laa and keep the length but i feel like my hair is short.
maybe there's no difference when you see it lor, but than i feel its short now.
im just to stress and bored till i decide to cut my hair just now.
ive long to try for extention, but i really dont know.
and im gona dye JET BLACK?soon?
oh yes. roy say , "youuu look minah with the hair.
and what fuck does it concern about i look like minah with my hair?
roy say,"the colour"
dummy.
gahhhhh!
and now,
see im thinking of him again.
fadhli, why are you doing this to me?
is love a bullshit?
oh dear, wake up lynn.
