i decided to view my old blog reading my past history with the old ex bf,faizul.
just read it for fun,
and i find that now the feelings is totally gone.
ive mention that i'll never forget him but as time pass by,
its already 2 years we've already broke up, there's no more feelings between us.
so whats now, will this happen to me and fadhli?
but its unfair bcos of love just stop like that, and that is what hurt me the most and dosen make me feel sastified.
i dont know, i just dont know but i still want to be with him..
but i dont think there is still hope for us.
he wants me to hate him
he wants me to throw everythg far far away.
he wants me to forget him.
but i know i wont.
i still feel that his around, he's still mine.
i just feel that he's away and will come back soon.
i just feel that way.

i dont wanna be in a new relationship.
i just dont want.
but can i have him instead?
:( :(

i was webcam-ing with afah baby.
and she say that i look pale with the mate bengkak and pucat face.
that is what my friends told me when they webcam with me,
i've been crying and thinking almost everyday...
which u tot i was happily haven fun or fling around,
its never true.

and here, see this picture and mind the face.

i feel like cutting my hair shortttttttt.
should i?shoulden i?
but i want to keep my hair long,
and this afah baby finally did her hair extention.
CB LU.

WAS SO HAPPY WEBCAM-ING WITH HER U KNOW.
DA BERBULAN TAK JUMPE, bcos of those ups n down..
and i realli really miss her and the rest of the babies.
:)
and afah, sorry about the past and i miss uuuuuu so so much .
:)
and will meet up sooon and have more story telling okay.
lets forgive n forget.
what does friendship mean without misunderstanding and quarelling.
:)
after all, u girls will always be my babies.
< 33333 i just woke up now, and tomorrow im gona be home alone at noooooon. i miss midnight phonecall, u got me wrong.

today,
happy 14monthsary babylove.
i just feel that ure still apart of me.
:(