Sunday, March 8, 2009, 5:59 AM
Initially, ive plan to go there alone.
i just dont want to keep things until its rusty bcos at the end of the day , they'll always be in my wardrobe. Its very hard on me to do it but im trying to do my best to do it and get over it.
Until, ain save me and text me saying she can help me pass all those things to him, so i decide to meet her at bugis and he was actually there.
I bring imah along.
and apon reaching there, i cant bring myself to face him cause i know i'll feel so umcomfortable and i know i'll cry.
but im trying my best to face it and accept that things are gone.
and of cause i did went up to them, and meet them at kfc.
not much conversation.
i cant bring myself to start the conversation 1st until he pushed me aside.
i really cant face him, bcos im just very broken hearted and idk why i feel scared.
Nothing much to be said,
bcos things are already over, he said.
our conversation make me cry.
make me cry so much until i hugged him and dont want to let him go.
but i know, i cant do anything and i have to face it and in the end,
he kissed my forhead and bid me goodbye.
i cried,
i did cried.
my mind are totally lost at that time.
i dont know what to do, and i just keepon crying and feel like screaming and knocking my head and everything you know.
Until imah came up to me and cool me down,
i was a lil bit okay than.
slowly,
breathe in n breathe out,
we left.
My mind are lost at that point of time.
i dont know what to do.
where to go.
i dont have any appetite to eat tho i bought old chang kee.
i dont know, i just feel LOST and heartbroken.
but yet,
ive to accept this.
and baby, its okay with me but seriously u'll always be in my heart
when my friends talked about their bf,
ive never mention, "my ex bf "blablabla.
but i still call him, "abeh bf aku.."blablabla.
even tho ure really gone,
i just feel that somehow ure still sticking in my heart and will always be.
we sat behind bugis bhg, me and imah since ain left with him n her friend.
we decided to leave only at 6 to far east to meet mum, dad n sister for sakura.
i tried my best to cheer up,
and try to laugh and smile.
and finally i did,
during midnight but somehow i feel that im just faking it.
it wasen sincere but like she say,
this is all faith.
i cant afford to cry almost everyday bcos i know crying wont bring him back to me.
and only if he do, i THINK i'll be the happiest woman in the world.
and this gona be the last entry im typing about this,
he said , " tk gune kite bebual , kite da tkdepape, i tk akan patah balekk".
(:
its alright hunney.
all i just wanna say,
i mis ur hug,
ur kisses
being pampered,
i miss all those stupid arguement, silly arguement -sighhhhh
and i just miss the old you.
goodbye.
i just dont want to keep things until its rusty bcos at the end of the day , they'll always be in my wardrobe. Its very hard on me to do it but im trying to do my best to do it and get over it.
Until, ain save me and text me saying she can help me pass all those things to him, so i decide to meet her at bugis and he was actually there.
I bring imah along.
and apon reaching there, i cant bring myself to face him cause i know i'll feel so umcomfortable and i know i'll cry.
but im trying my best to face it and accept that things are gone.
and of cause i did went up to them, and meet them at kfc.
not much conversation.
i cant bring myself to start the conversation 1st until he pushed me aside.
i really cant face him, bcos im just very broken hearted and idk why i feel scared.
Nothing much to be said,
bcos things are already over, he said.
our conversation make me cry.
make me cry so much until i hugged him and dont want to let him go.
but i know, i cant do anything and i have to face it and in the end,
he kissed my forhead and bid me goodbye.
i cried,
i did cried.
my mind are totally lost at that time.
i dont know what to do, and i just keepon crying and feel like screaming and knocking my head and everything you know.
Until imah came up to me and cool me down,
i was a lil bit okay than.
slowly,
breathe in n breathe out,
we left.
My mind are lost at that point of time.
i dont know what to do.
where to go.
i dont have any appetite to eat tho i bought old chang kee.
i dont know, i just feel LOST and heartbroken.
but yet,
ive to accept this.
and baby, its okay with me but seriously u'll always be in my heart
when my friends talked about their bf,
ive never mention, "my ex bf "blablabla.
but i still call him, "abeh bf aku.."blablabla.
even tho ure really gone,
i just feel that somehow ure still sticking in my heart and will always be.
we sat behind bugis bhg, me and imah since ain left with him n her friend.
we decided to leave only at 6 to far east to meet mum, dad n sister for sakura.
i tried my best to cheer up,
and try to laugh and smile.
and finally i did,
during midnight but somehow i feel that im just faking it.
it wasen sincere but like she say,
this is all faith.
i cant afford to cry almost everyday bcos i know crying wont bring him back to me.
and only if he do, i THINK i'll be the happiest woman in the world.
and this gona be the last entry im typing about this,
he said , " tk gune kite bebual , kite da tkdepape, i tk akan patah balekk".
(:
its alright hunney.
all i just wanna say,
i mis ur hug,
ur kisses
being pampered,
i miss all those stupid arguement, silly arguement -sighhhhh
and i just miss the old you.
goodbye.
